I actually recorded this about a month ago… But I didn’t convert the file to MP3 so till now so I couldn’t upload it earlier… So yeah… This is my first vlog. (If you want something less personal and more thought provoking, check out my rant! I will post more of those as well. The one I have posted is called “~ Hypocritical parents? ~”.)
A week and a half ago I had this really weird dream… It was kind of cool, though… ‘Cuz… Well, I dreamt I was at Hogwarts. I was a student there. And I can’t really remember what house I was in-it might have been Hufflepuff-but um I was in the Great Hall with a bunch of other students. And Voldemort was spying on me or something. He was using bats and these little circular black things with an eyeball in the center of them. They’d stick to the walls and whenever I left a room they’d disappear and appear again near me. But that only happened when I was talking to a friend of mine -I guess he was a spy… Though, he wasn’t in Slytherin… He looked a bit like Cedric Diggory but it wasn’t him.
Anyway, I knew Voldemort was spying on me and I also figured out it was only possible for him to do so when I was near my friend. So, I went to Dumbledore and told him that I knew where Voldemort was. He was hiding in the dungeon with the Slytherins. Then I kind of ran off. Like… Okay, I was sitting with Harry, Ron, and Hermione, I think and I was telling them what I told Dumbledore earlier that day or something about Voldemort, I think. So, I like-I got up and ran out the Great Hall. I went into the Slytherin common room-don’t ask how I got in because I have no idea. Dreams are weird like that.
So… I walked in… And… A bunch of Slytherins were there… I looked past them and saw Voldemort near the back. He was walking towards me and drawing out his wand. Before I could do anything I heard him shout out, “Crucio!” and point his wand down on me. And-omg *shudders*- I can still imagine the feeling I got when he did that. It was terrible. It hurt sort of and felt really uncomfortable. But the uncomfortableness was just ‘cuz of the pain. It was a very odd feeling. I was writhing around and squirming on the ground. I wasn’t screaming or anything, though, because the pain wasn’t really intense… I think I would’ve woken up if it was that bad.
… I then pulled out my wand-actually, I think it was already out but Voldemort was just faster at spell casting. I lifted my wand over my head and slammed it down to my right, sort of behind me a little-it was a really awkward angle-and shouted, “Expelliarmus!” I shouted it three times, each time slamming my wand down. Each time it sounded more and more exhausted and had less and less energy put into it.
I was trying to aim it at Voldemort-actually… now that I think about it… I was pretty stupid in the dream. I wasn’t really aiming in the right place… He was standing more to my right than behind me. I guess I was distracted by the pain…? I don’t know…
By the second whack of my wand, it had started to crack and by the third it was gone. It broke. I wasn’t really panicked by it, though. It was more of the subtle thought of, “Oh shit.”
Then I ended up… Somewhere else in Hogwarts-I think it was the Great Hall again. I was showing my broken wand to Hermione and the others. I have no clue how I got there…
Oh! My wand was a weird color, too. It looked like a chopstick. It was this weird very light brown color.
That was one of the most intense dreams I’ve had. It was a little scary but not so much that it was a nightmare. I actually liked that dream quite a bit. Even though I failed at fighting Voldemort and don’t remember how I got away… It was interesting. Fun. It was like living in a fanfic. Haha.
Music: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Soundtrack - 08. The Room Of Requirement
Discuss the sexual tension between Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter.
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Question to discuss:Discuss the sexual tension between Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter. (Btw, I'm glad I'm making people 'lol'? xD)
Stranger:to the questioner: yes, you do!
You:I love you person who made this question
Stranger:dito.. lets discuss about it!
You:how do they not realize they have the hots for each other?
Stranger:i believe that there actually is a tiny bit of a sexual energy, but they seem to be too shy
You:and Malfoy's just so much of ass. it's a cover-up.
You:first of all, he needs to get laid.
You:second of all it has to be Harry Potter.
Stranger:maybe thats why harry is too shy!
Stranger:maybe malfoy doesn't realize that he needs to be laid
You:that makes sense... that's why he can't figure out his true feelings for Hary.
Stranger:and harry could be confused because of ron...
You:nah I think he's confused cuz of Cho and Ginny.
You:he liked Cho but she was taken my Cedric. thennn it took Ginny YEARS to do something about Harry.
You:maybe he was waiting for that... cuz he's rlly awkward with girls anyway.
You:he wouldn't make the first move... or doesn't seem the type to.
Stranger:and that's why harry couldn't explore his real feelings for malfoy...
You:and Malfoy's too much of a stubborn prick to do anything about his feelings even if he /did/ realize them.
Stranger:i think he could not accept them...
You:yeah... his thoughts were something like, "No this is ridiculous. I'm letting everyone's fawning over famous Harry Potter get to me. he's not so attractive at all."
Stranger:and even if he accepts his real feelings for harry, malfoy could think that he wouldn't have any chance because harry's so famous
You:and maybe he was scared of being killed or disowned or both!
Stranger:it's like casual guys and hot actors
Stranger:and that's why he just buries his love feelings for harry and reduces it to a sexual attraction. but he doesn't know that. even if he always says that harry isnt that attractive, subliminal he wants to be with him.
You:yeah. and he hates the Weaseys not just cuz of his dad's influence on his opinion but because he's jealous.
You:another reason he makes fun of Hermione all the time and calls her Mudblood and such.
Stranger:but i can't imagine his confusion when it comes out that hermione is with ron...
You:maybe he's still jealous that Harry's /still/ close with the two after they get together.
Stranger:that could be another reason for malfoy for hiding his true feelings. he is confused
You:and maybe Snape knows and confronted him about it and he denied it so he's all paranoid and in denial and trying to prove Snape wrong.
You:weird theory... but it's possibllle.
Stranger:could be, yes.
Stranger:and because of the constant lying to snape he believes it himself.
Stranger:he _wants_ to believe what he's saying to snape...
You:but he can't... because it's just not true.
You:he wants Harry so badly.
Stranger:let's get the whole story from harrys side... we only analized malfoy so far
You:oh yeah. good idea.
You:I never noticed.
You:Harry's probably scared Malfoy would make fun of him or only go out with him for the ulterior motive of working for Voldemort. that's /if/ he can admit it to himself.
Stranger:he also could have feelings for hermione and/or ron's sister what makes it even more complicated
You:hmm, I never thought of that one before...
You:I completely overlooked that obvious one. lol.
Stranger:i believe that he doesn't want to decide for anyone because he probably could hurt the other
You:I was either he ONLY like Malfoy or a girl.
You:that makes sense.
You:he's a pansy in that sense xD
You:or just really smart... cuz if he went out with Malfoy...
Stranger:so he doesn't decide at all, which only hurts him.. he doesn't want to talk to malfoy about his feelings because he thinks that could hurt the girl(s)
You:and he can't risk anything secret because their in different houses and "hate" each other so it'd be hard to cover up hanging out unless they got detention and lost points constantly for fake fights they used as cover-ups.
Stranger:a little bit like romeo and juliet
Stranger:but in this case its romeo and julio.
You:the forbidden love... they just don't follow through like in Shakespeare's play.
You:they ignore it or choose not to act on it.
Stranger:in my opinion, harry isn't selfish enough. he could choose between malfoy and ron's sister, which is luxury to most guys i know.
Stranger:he still could have malfoy as a backup...
You:that's terrible... I hate that term... a back-up person to date... I don't think Harry would be that cruel if he truly does care for Malfoy.
You:it's either he'd go for it or he'd "move on"
You:or try to...
You:and end up in bed with the Slytherin
Stranger:and he does care for malfoy even if he is not dating him or _because_ he is not dating him
Stranger:what do you think, does he know about malfoys situation with snape?
Stranger:maybe he just doesn't want to make it worse for malfoy
You:hmm... maybe not... if he knew he'd probably act on his emotions.
Stranger:because if snape sees them together, he would be pretty obset
You:or that ya
You:Snape would be pisssed because he's the one that has to protect BOTH boys.
You:and they'd be putting themselves in danger.
Stranger:and if they are together they still could hurt each other by betraying or breaking up
Stranger:so snape failed in protecting them
Stranger:maybe harry also has hidden feelings for snape... he doesn't want him to feel bad because he couldn't protect both...
You:that's possible... but I think he thinks of Snape more like a guardian. an evil one. lol.
Stranger:so, you think harry doesn't care about snape?
You:well not in /that/ way
Stranger:he could be attracted by that bad boy thing
You:hmm that's a good point..
You:but I think he's just head-over-heals about Malfoy. too much to let the Snape thing mess with his mind too much.
Stranger:possible... so if harry is attracted to snape, it's only on the sexual way
You:he just thinks he sexy. lol.
Stranger:maybe thats another point why malfoy isn't true about his feelings
You:yeah he could notice this.
Stranger:he could have recognized that attraction and only wants harry to be happy.. so he doesn't want to be in the way
You:the looks Harry gives Snape when he thinks no one's looking.
You:he's angry about it
You:Malfoy seems the type to get angry about something like that
You:so he doesn't want to "make a fool of himself" and try to go for Harry
Stranger:like "snape should be with harry, i dont want him anyway"
You:"ugh. disgusting. he likes old men. well, good for boy-wonder. I don't like him anyway."
Stranger:but harry doesn't realize that and thinks malfoy really doesn't like him
You:wow they're both stubborn, dense, horny, bastards xD
Stranger:which leads to thoughts like "there's no chance i ever could be with malfoy"
You:yeah. so he starts looking at Ginny or trying to notice her more.
Stranger:and malfoy realizes that and thinks he could never have a chance with harry
Stranger:so, lets sum it up:
Stranger:harry does like malfoy, malfoy does like harry
Stranger:harry is attracted by snape which is disgusting to malfoy
You:so they're stubborn and misinterpret the other's feelings.
You:and they're scared of hurting each other or themselves.
Stranger:so malfoy is denying harry and harry thinks that malfoy doesn't like him
Stranger:and that means harry is looking after ginny, because of that malfoy thinks he doesn't have a chance
Stranger:which leads to a lot of confusion because malfoy is getting angry inside.
Stranger:so he starts to deny his real feelings
You:which also makes Harry think he doesn't care because he's still being an ass and so he keeps looking the other way.
Stranger:so the feelings for each other are vanishing slowly and ignorance is to come.
Stranger:we have the emotional side of it, but i think we lost the initial question...
You:yeahh... we barely talked about sexual tension o-o